Monday, October 31, 2011

The Day has arrived..I am ready..

August 2011, altered my life in so many ways. I was blessed  with a long weekend with oldest daughter, to celebrate her bridal shower. I will always cherish that weekend. It is also the weekend that brought me to the doctor. Who knew a simple airplane ride would be my sign of a problem.

I have spent my whole life afraid to fly. I have gone into every flight for as long as I can remember with white knuckles and in prayer the plane would remain in the air. This flight in August was no different, except for the fact that I got airsick for the first time on the way to Florida. Then again, on my return trip to Texas. Truthfully, had that not happened I would have  ignored the stomach pain, and  nausea again. I had chalked it up to, exercise, bad eating habits and aging. A quick trip to the dr and a CT scan changed a few things for me. ONE, I am no longer afraid to fly. Two, I found out I had a nasty little tumor growing on my Pancreas. How annoying.. Weeks of testing and drs visits found the answer. A neuroendocrine tumor (NET) of the Pancreas.

My first thought back then was, why me. Well, a lot has changed. Now I say, how blessed I am to have gotten the opportunity to see the compassion, love, kindness, grace and generosity of those around me and from people I have never met. How many of us really get that kind of gift in our lifetime? For me, I have been so completely humbled and awestruck by this that I can't even express the gratitude I give God for this gift.

With this gift comes a price, the small sacrifice is the surgery and lifestyle change for me. As I prepare for tomorrows surgery. Also, the fear and torment my family has endured over the months has been difficult.. For that, I am so very sorry. I am scared of the unkown and the known. So don't think I am some brave soul, that I am not. If I could get out of this, I would run away faster that you could imagine.

I do know a few things, I am surrounded by God's grace, love and healing powers. I am blessed with friends and family that will and have always been by my side. I hope and pray that I WILL come out of this  a better person. I may be missing a few parts, but I hope my heart grows a few sizes, not unlike the Grinch. I think I want to make this blessing worth while..I can never, repay the people in my life for all the love and support, so I will just end it with Thank you and I LOVE YOU..


  1. Once again you blow us away with your amazing attitude. Love you Kristen. You really are an inspiration even if you don't want to be. XO.

  2. sending tons of love and positive energy your way!!

  3. Thank you for your deeply moving account of your pilgrimage. We will be in prayer for you and your family in the coming days.

  4. Kris
    I so Love you--
    and this is a blessings of a testimony--
    I have been praying for you --

    ~ and Danah is right , once again that Postiveness is just you

    Praying praying praying

  5. You do have an incredibly positive attitude and a strong faith in God. I pray for you as you go through this and hope for a speedy recovery. Love, Karen Mimbs

  6. Beautifully written! We will continue to keep you in our prayers, especially today! Love, Bunt, Ida and Daniela

  7. You are such an amazing woman, Kris! I love the humility with which you express your gratitude. What an encouragement you have been to so many who had hoped to encourage you. Funny how that goes.

    YOU, my sweet sister are in the mighty hands of God.

    Thank you for this beautiful post and update. Waiting to hear how you are doing. Praying that you experience the grace and power of God like never before.

    With much love!

  8. Sweet Kris,
    You Just Crossed My Mind,
    Praying and Hoping All is Well / as can be!
    Hope the Surgery Went Well-!

    YOu Are Sheltered, In the Hands OF God!

    ~ We Will be Waiting, for An Upate, and Know God Has Brought, you Mile Stones, and Miles Stones!

    Prayers Going to the throne
    Love In HIS Name,


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My name is Kris. I am a wife, a mom to six, a photographer, a reader, a Christian, a Diet Coke drinker, a closet ice cream eater, a walker and a memory keeper.. Thanks for coming by to say hi, I can't wait to get to know you :)